As you know, I’ve been absent from this space for several months. I’ve held off as long as I could writing this post. This is hard to write, and it’s taken me a while to get to this point.
Jason and I are divorced. It’s the hardest thing I have ever had to deal with and most days it’s hard to come up for air. I know God has a plan for me, for Jason, for us, and He is slowly revealing it to me. He has blessed me and provided for me throughout this horrific process and it only makes me love God even more. I have experienced His unending love, sweet grace and mercy, and His comfort. I am solely relying on Jesus.
This is tough—for both of us. What I ask from you is to pray. I selfishly beseech you to pray for us. I’m not sure how many of you have experienced this firsthand but it is.. just awful, for lack of a better word. I’m thankful for a space here where I can be honest with you. Blogs aren’t always rainbows and sunshine. Blogs are real life. And I want mine to be real.
I have an amazing, supportive family and an incredible group of friends helping me through this. I thank God for them every day.
It’s okay to ask questions. Ask me how I’m doing. Ask me if I want to talk. I might not answer some days but others I’ll open up. It’s awkward. It’s uncomfortable. But that’s life. I don’t want this space to become distanced from you guys. I don’t want you to feel awkward and uncomfortable or like you’re walking on eggshells obviously tiptoeing around a sore subject. This is a life space. There are moments of happiness, sadness, heartache, and excitement. I want this space to be a place where we can come and encourage each other as sisters and uplift one another in times of heartache and strife. That is my hope for this blog and for me opening up to you about my life.
Thank you all for reading and keeping up with my silly life. I love this old hobby of mine and am glad you all enjoy it too. This is a new chapter for me and I hope you’ll continue to tag along.
-Melody
Sunday morning I actually woke up at a decent hour after only having had 6 hours of sleep. Jason was up and I convinced him we should go and get donuts at our favorite place. This donut shop will never leave my memory. It was the place we had our first breakfast as a married couple on our way to the airport for our honeymoon. So every time we go there it always ends up being a perfect day. Sunday was no exception. After we bought $20 worth of donuts we drove downtown and found a vacant picnic table under an awning and had breakfast. Since most people were in church downtown was quiet. It was the perfect time to walk around and take pictures like I’d been wanting to do. (I still want to go back! There’s so much to be explored!) We drove around in some neighborhoods and saw some really beautiful houses. Almost beautiful enough to make me want to stay here. 😉
cardi: F21, dress: F21, scarf: Walmart, jeans: Goodwill, boots: Goodwill, belt: thrifted
7:30-7:40: Watch a hot air balloon race and ask Jason stupid questions. Suggestions: How do hot air balloons land? Why is fire hot? 
7:40-8: Drive some more.
8:30-9: Errands. (Optional, unless you are an adult. In which case, do your errands.)
10:30-11: Coffee! (Overpriced Starbucks/awkward self-portrait optional.)
11-3:30: Shoppity, shop shop in the form of Target (be sure to find a friend and complain about how much your feet hurt but smile so your husband knows you’re having fun with him), Best Buy, Target again, and Kohl’s. If possible, follow your husband into the dressing room to watch him try on sports paraphernalia.
(Insert a ridiculous heat wave and me dying from it and then coming back to life here.)
4:45: Pick up LB and head ouuuut. (But get your own cat. She’s mine.)
shirt, skirt: F21, sandals: Old Navy